The secret of live

Indonesian traditional style : batik (clothes)
and sanggul (hair's style)

Several days ago my soulmate complained that her patient had unwanted baby and let her baby died after it was born. How could there is a woman don't want her baby while another woman desperately want to have baby. Why the baby comes to the woman who never want it, and doesn't come to the woman who need it desperately.


Today I read that Ashton Kutcher cheat on his faithful wife while in the same time, my friend told me that she can't take her husband out of her mind even they never meet lively 2 years , and even her husband never touch and support her life. In this situation, she can ask divorce automatically by legal, but she doesn't want ! Why that devotion grow in the heart of a woman who treated unfair by her partner. In this situation, it would be better if my friend has unfaithful heart otherwise let Ashton Kutcher has a faithful heart. So everyone will deserve for their happiness.


However, the good news it's not happen to all of the people. There is also people who deserve for their happiness (thanks God) :
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2051047/Gordon-Norma-Yeager-married-72-yrs-die-hour-apart-holding-hands.html


I don't know what happen with people in my story above and don't wanna judge them (it's not my business :p ), that's the secret of live. Only God and those people knows. However, I wish in every choice I choose in live, I deserve for my happiness. I know, sometimes my choice could hurt me for a moment, but for the happiness in the end, why not ? Just let God handle the rest. 


*I upload this picture as thank you for Olga Iuriichuk who took it. 
And to appreciate her work, I upload the original one

Dying and Birthday

Have you ever met dying ?

Maybe not your own experience

but others....

I never met it directly

But I felt it, and closed with this experience

It's not about me, but others, people who close to me...

they faced it....

People, who acompanied them while dying, told me,

they dropped a tear  in the last time of their live

Their latest tear drop

Breaking up all of the hope and love

How about baby born,

Have you ever saw it directly ?

Maybe not your own experience

but others.....

I never met it directyl yet

But I know that a normal baby born will cry

once they were born....

Their first tear drop
Initiating all of the hope and love

You can read scientific explanation about this symptom in google

However, as a believer

World tell us all of its secret by symbol

The latest tear drop in this live

Means goodbye.........

The first tear drop in this live

Means "Hello world, I'm exist" :)

Yes, I'm still available in this world

For more than two decade

And still need accomplish my mission of life

For the purpose of my creator

Then hope can return to my real love

The source of the life, my creator

A story to ponder

A preterm baby came to my hospital with distress respiratory problem. Most likely it was due to hyaline membrane disease, a common cause of respiratory disorder in preterm babies. I found out that the mother didn’t want this baby so during the first trimester she tried to do abortion by consuming drugs. Nevertheless, the baby survived until she was born. But now the condition is decreasing. I have talked to the mother about the condition but “somehow” she didn’t seem to care. She even barely visited her child. Her grandmother came today and said that they were “ready” if the child died. Ready? or don’t care at all?! Don’t they realise that they are actually killing a human being slowly?

I wonder whether animals also have cases of unwanted children as well?

Moment

....is a dawn 
That marks the beginning of the twilight before sunrise 

Be free

A good life is when you can liberate your ideas, take action on them and be sure that they are good for you and others....and of course have time to drink a good cup of coffee in the morning

@photographed by Timarthias

A quick note

If you are an observer, try to observe your feelings in one day. You’ll be surprise how this feelings change quickly from low to high, high to low, moderate to low, moderate to high. Sometimes it appears without any reasons. My conclusion on this is that don’t get too excited when you are happy or too gloomy when you are sad. Because nothing lasts forever, even your feelings.

(This was taken in 2005, using my old manual camera)

Tribute for Steve Jobs

‎"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything -- all external expectations, all pride, all fear of 
embarrassment or failure -- these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important." - Steve Jobs

"It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations”- Kahlil Gibran

La Défense entre les fontaine

If water represent the mind

Then river (path) represent the desire

Controling the water

Create an useful path

Sleepless night shift

Why everytime I have my night shift I can't fall asleep. It bothers me because I know I will feel like a zombie in the next day if I don't sleep at all. All I want is to just have an hour - or two- of sleeping, it's enough. And at this moment, I envy this little bird that can cuddle its mother in its comfort nest.

O Canada!

Suddenly miss Canada with its freezing winter and colourful autumn.

@photographed by Deanna Loeppky

Song without words

Looking at those flowers in the garden is like singing songs without words

Let me sing a song without words. To uplift your ill heart and light your gloomy emotion

Let me take you soaring high behind the moon. To forget your worry

Let me hold your hand to my world. Where everything is in peace, no hurry

All you need is to find me. Deep within you

A funny thing

Smile, life is actually just funny!

Bzzzzzz

Bzzzzzz that's the sound of my mind, like the sound of flies flying

Don't let it die

There was time when I ignored my right brain, just because I felt that I wanted to concentrate on my left brain. I was wrong, very wrong. In retrospect, it was a dry and dull period of my life. I realised that what I did in those times consumed my energy and "forcefully" suppressed the transmission of my right brain.

So don't let your creativity die. Just unleash it and let it flow. Embrace the balance of life

Le pont

Communication is like a bridge for connecting one place to another place, one idea to another idea.
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Porte

Open the door please......

The long is waiting

The time is running

Forcing her to leave

Open your door please.....

Fleurs

Flowers are the sweetest things God ever made, and forgot to put a soul into.  ~Henry Beecher, Life Thoughts, 1858

Non attachment

I still find it hard to say goodbye to most people -or anything. My mom (who's a dentist) said farewell is like pulling out a toothache, it hurts and needs to be done, but will heal later.

So...

Now...I am pulling my guts to say goodbye and let my heart in peace

Against the reality

Often we don’t want to face with reality because it seems bitter than what we expect. Then we create things to cover the reality so that people will accept it. So that we look “beautiful” on other people’s eyes. And if we don’t do that, we will be just some outcasts. Sadly, I live in a culture like that.

When will the truth be true?

Rainbow in our life

I think we need "rainbow" everyday to lighten our life. Rainbow can be your passion, your kids, someone you love, or for those spiritualists - God. Rainbow is like a booster to drive up energy whenever we feel down. A dew drop in the middle of dessert.

Hence, go and find our own rainbow. Who knows, life can be more colourful

Never stay in Hotel de Ville

When you are in France, never book a room in Hotel de Ville. They will never give you a room.

Wondering in Kiwi Land

One thing I mostly remember about New Zealand is, of course, the sheep.

Wanted a SLR camera....

Okay I may not have a SLR camera at the moment (which I desperately want!), but I am contented with my Panasonic Lumix FZ8 (at the moment). The good part of this camera is that it's easy and slightly better than a pocket camera. But the bad part is that it has noise when the light is little. Regardless, I just feel happy with what I have. This picture is my first experiment with this camera.

Hmm....I am hoping a SLR camera will fall down from the sky for me

Don't kiss and tell

If you are not a good kisser, learn from cockatoos. They kiss a lot :)

Meditate

So this was a place where the Sultans of Jogjakarta did their meditation ages ago. The place was humid and dark (I almost had my asthma attack). My husband said that the place sent shivers down his spine. I didn't think so, instead I took pictures all over the place. Hope nothing "scary" came out of the photos..hehe.

Uncertainty

I meet heaps of kids in my daily life, and I learn a lot from them. When they are happy, they will laugh hard. When they are sad, they will cry. When they are scared, they will scream. Perhaps, it's just an honest way for them to respond this world. World that is full of uncertainties. After all, the only certain in this world is uncertainty (that's what I've learned after studying Epidemiology :p).

Thumbs up

I got excited that finally I captured this man. He barely looked behind his back, and when he did..SHOOT..yes I got him!

Should I give you my bread?

Hmm I like kids. They make me smile. But why they often cry when they see me..huuf!

Reflection

Lake near my dormitory

Another victim

Another "victim" of Mount Merapi eruption, a burnt car. The temperature got super hot (>100 C) so glasses were shattered and cars were burnt.

Swimming freely

Just swimming freely

Liberty

Perhaps we need to live our life just like kids. Less thinking, less fear. Just enjoy our moment.

Need some water

It's too hot outside

NYC...piece of cake

When I was going to travel to Baltimore by myself, I was a bit worried. To go there, I had to go to NYC before taking a train to Baltimore. Woof, NYC...yikes how can I ever survive in that huge city even though I would only be there for 3 hours. But Tiara comforted me that I should be okay, knowing that I grew up in Jakarta. "NYC = Jakarta", she said. I didn't believe her. Come on, I saw in the movies about NYC and it seemed like a "jungle" city (minus Tarzan).

Well after having a 25 hour flight to NYC, I only had 3 hours before the train took me to Baltimore. JFK airport was packed with people and the immigration queue was quite long, plus the flight arrived late, so I was nervous as to whether I would eventually get the train. After “escaping” from the immigration, I needed to go to Penn station by bus. Unfortunately, the bus only took me to Grand Central Station. So I needed to get a taxi. At Grand Central station, it was hard to get a taxi because it was rush hour and they didn’t want to take me to Penn station. My instinct said I needed to go the other street, hoping that it would be easier to get a taxi. And I was right! This was the first time I felt lucky that I grew up in Jakarta. Okay so, it was 5.30 pm and the train would leave at 6.15 so I only had 45 minutes. With traffic jam everywhere will I ever make it? Finally, Penn station. The time was 6.10. Crap...where should I go from here? For me, Penn station was huge and I was confused. Not sure why, people there didn’t help me much when I asked where I should go. But anyway, I found the lane...and it was 6.19. Ahh...okay well, I’m definitely late now. But then I saw the board and it said that the train was delayed. Pheww...

So I guess, Tiara was right, NYC = Jakarta....piece of cake then

Gothic and Flower

Flower is always beautiful . It could give tenderness before a gothic architecture.

Location : A church in Bretagne

* Pocket camera : Casio

Sunrise in Borobudur

I had a nice feeling when I climbed up to the top of Borobudur temple to see the sunrise. The air was fresh and not many people around (knowing that you have to get up at 4 am to go there). I could imagine the situation around Borobudur 1200 years ago when Sailendra dynasti built it. Must be very peaceful.

Inside the gothic

Fiuh.....at least interior design of gothic church, still express peacefulness, and coolness to say hello to our Creator.

Location : Tours - France

* Pocket camera : Casio

Gothic era

Have you ever curious, how the architect get the gothic idea for a church ? It's very complicated and feels .........horror

Location : Tours - France

* Pocket camera : Casio

New found joy

If only 11 years ago I knew how photography could be so exciting, I wouldn't choose my current job (ha). But oh well. At least this blog can divert my mind whenever I feel stuck.

Musée des beaux arts - TOURS

An archbishop was here ;p , now you only can meet a lot of antique paintings from XVIII centuries.

It's always nice to walk around this palace, refresh your mind by reading your favourite book under the tree. Enjoying the fresh air with sunshine cuddle.

Location : Tours - France

*pocket camera : CASIO

Chinese New Year

Always enjoy being in the middle of a celebration. A shot from last year Chinese New Year.

What bird?

Anyone knows what kind of bird is that? I have no idea...

A lady with hand-woven fabrics

Often I don't take snapshots of people. I'm not sure why, perhaps because I am an introvert (ha). But this lady who was selling hand-woven fabrics in Lombok attracted me to take some pictures of her. She looked sad as if having a deep wound within her. Hopefully she's alright out there.

Black Gold

Believe it or not, underneath that sand is actually a river with hot water. Yup, that sand actually comes from Mount Merapi eruption in Yogyakarta (Find out where it is if you don’t know). Mount Merapi erupted in October 2010 and it was one of the biggest eruptions ever. More than 150 people died due to the eruption, including the well-known Mountkeeper, Mbah Maridjan. Now, the Indonesian government are trying to dig the sand out so that the river can be functioned again. The locals also gain benefit from the sand because they can take the sand and sell it. The black gold, they named it.

Beautiful Gannets

This picture I took at Muriwai Beach, Auckland. I was so fascinated to watch the birds flying, nesting. I could actually stand and watch them for hours, if only my little nephew didn’t beg me to go down off the cliff. Gannets, which the birds are called, always live in a colony. They started the colony at Muriway Beach in the early 20th century. I wonder if they will ever leave the place and start a new colony?

Captain d'au lac

Il s'appelle Captain

Je l'ai rencontré ce soir au lac

*Blackberry 8250